I am facing Agony
why I am facing agony? Agony and grief are more than just temporary feelings or passing emotions. Emotional agony tends to affect and change the whole person our values and outlook on life how we treat others. Learning how to recognize agony and its effects can help you channel those changes in a more positive direction.
What Is Emotional Agony?
Agony is a state of severe, usually extended, physical, mental, or emotional suffering. The word agony can be used to describe the intense pain of either the body or the mind.
Emotional agony is a type of severe psychological pain that some of us may experience at some point in our lives, for a short or an extended period.
Common Cause Of Emotional Agony
One of the most common types of emotional agony is the agony of losing someone close to us-otherwise known as grief. Almost every person must go through the process of grief at some point in life, though for some, grief can strike early and often.
- Mental Illness
Emotional agony can also stem from a mental and emotional disorder such as bipolar disorder, depression, and borderline personality disorder (BPD). These disorders can cause the sufferer to experience emotional agony more frequently than those who do not have the disorder, and in situations where most would not experience high levels of emotional agony (or any emotional distress at all).
- Physical Illness
Physical pain, whether it is acute (like a broken bone) or chronic (like arthritis), can lead to a state of emotional agony. Chronic pain, especially, can create a sense of despair and cause ongoing emotional distress and mental agony.
Past mistakes and regrets are another one of the primary causes of emotional turmoil in life. If you’ve made a mistake that you regret-whether you did something on purpose that you now realize wrong, or it was an accident that you feel you could have prevented-living in past regrets can lead to extended periods of emotional agony.
- Rejection& Failure
Every person experiences the emotional pain of rejection or failure at some point in their life. However, for some, the feeling of rejection can lead to a persistent feeling of emotional agony that is chronic and ongoing.
Emotional Pain Vs. Emotional Agony
Emotional pain exists in everyday life: we might have to work on a day where we’d rather stay home. We might not be able to make rent this month and have to borrow money from our parents or partner. These acute emotional pains are usually quickly and easily resolved (you go to work, or you choose to stay home; you borrow the money and resolve to pay it back next month).
Emotional agony, on the other hand, is a severe emotional pain that is less easily resolved and more persistent. Typically, emotional agony doesn’t have an easy solution and therefore lasts longer. It also usually affects us more severely than emotional pain. The difference between emotional agony and emotional pain can be described as follows:
A feeling of anger, sadness, or negative emotion that has a defined solution and can be remedied through a short period or a relatively straightforward and easy action.
- Emotional Agony
Severe emotional discomfort that does not have an easily defined solution and may only be remedied through an extended period or repeated actions (i.e., therapy).
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How Emotional Agony Changes Us?
Experiencing emotional agony inevitably changes a person; how much is not always up to the individual? However, we do have the ability to choose whether those changes are positive or negative.
- You Expect The Unexpected
When you’ve experienced emotional agony for any period, you learn that bad life events (whether under your control or not) can happen unexpectedly at any moment.
As a positive change:
You take life as it comes, understanding that even the best-laid plans are bound to fail now and then. You make those changes in the plan in strides and become more flexible.
As a negative change:
You try harder and harder to plan for the unexpected, but inevitably fail to predict the future. You become warier and wary of change and begin to hate even the most minor deviations from everyday routine.
- You Protect Yourself
Emotional agony can make a person understand the true importance-and fragility-of their emotional wellbeing. You strive to protect yourself from further emotional agony where possible.
You realize that your emotional wellbeing is largely within your control, but to some extent, it is not. You take precautions to protect yourself from emotional agony, but when those precautions fail, you don’t blame yourself or others; instead, you work to overcome the agony you now face.
As A Negative Change:
You look at every situation, and everyone has a potential threat to your emotional health. You begin to insulate yourself and shut yourself off from potentially enriching relationships and opportunities for fear of their breaking through your protective bubble.
- You See The Emotional Agony In Other
Before you experienced emotional agony, you likely wouldn’t have been able to recognize it in others-or at least not as well as you do now. Now that you’ve experienced it yourself, you begin to see emotional agony everywhere.
As a Positive Change:
You notice emotional agony in others, but you don’t take on others’ pain as your own. Instead, you relate more easily to others and feel less isolated within your pain. You recognize that each person’s experience of emotional agony is different from yours.
As a negative change:
You see others’ emotional agony as a burden and an addition to your emotional distress. You begin to isolate yourself more than a way to avoid the grief of others. You compare your emotional agony to the agony of others and potentially view theirs as lesser than yours.
Getting past the events that lead to your emotional agony and being happy again doesn’t happen overnight. Even once the agony has begun to fade, you may still experience numbness, disappointment, or loneliness.
As a positive change:
You appreciate happiness more and strive toward making necessary changes that can help you get there. You focus on what you can change and improve, and dwell less on what is out of your control.
As a negative change:
You decide that happiness is just too much work, and the things in your past which have caused agony are insurmountable. You know that even if you put in the hard work, emotional agony could strike at any time once again, for which you choose not to work towards happiness.